New Year's Thoughts

Both Rosh Hashanah and Yom Kippur have flown by, and Sukkot is shortly on its way. I had a very nice Rosh Hashanah spent with a very special, warm and accepting family that I feel fortunate to have met. But while my tummy was certainly happy (or over-happy) about Rosh Hashanah, my soul has been left quite lacking these days.

This past year was a really tough one for me. I've been constantly overwhelmed by all the responsibilities I have to juggle, sometimes not really being capable of handling them all. And I'm facing one more year of the same. I wish I could say that in these difficult times, my faith has been strengthened and I have learned to lean on God more than ever. But I can't. If anything, all my struggles have made it more difficult to keep praying and praying and not feel like I'm receiving answers.

So, for this reason, because I have been unable to turn my difficulties into strengths and because I don't think I can honestly say that I have learned from or grown from my challenges this year, my Rosh Hashanah and Yom Kippur were admittedly less than an uplifting spiritual experience. And that makes me sad, but it is what it is.

What's the point of this post? In part, just to post something, because I haven't in a long time. Also, to state that this might very well be the last post of this blog - I've run out of things to say, don't really have the mind for it anymore and think it might just be time to retire anyway. My Ramblings blog will probably continue to have my little bursts of un-thought-out thoughts, but this one will probably become pretty dormant as I struggle to just get through this last year of grad school.

I do wish everyone a healthy and happy year ahead.

Shana Tova

I haven't been posting much, mainly for lack of what to write these days, and due to a crazy life of moving and starting school for my final year (of my Master's degree; we'll see if the future holds more). But I want to take a minute to wish all my friends and readers (ok, a few members of my family read also) a wonderful New Year. I wish for everyone what they desire, ease of life and good people to fill their days. Have a sweet New Year!