Home Sick :(
I'm home sick today :( It's a sentence that can only end in a frown. I am off to see a doctor later, which is something I rarely do, but I decided that there is a reason that I pay money for health insurance and I should make some use of it. I have to thank my very sweet friend for making me soup yesterday while we watched a video (she even sent me home with leftovers). While home today, I've decided that I am going to be productive and actually do homework before it's due. That way, I can justify sitting home all day, something I have trouble doing - it's just boring and a waste of time (and there is nothing good on TV during the day, though I will probably try to catch up on the stack of DVDs my father keeps sending me).
Haven't been writing much for several reasons - been really busy, haven't had much to say, and have had too much to say, but not things that I necessarily feel comfortable posting and/or are clear enough in my head to be written into a post.
Here's an excerpt from my not-so-clear thinking (which could also be influenced by the fact that I'm not feeling so well):
It just continues to amaze me how we relate differently to different people, and how our personalities can change from interaction to interaction. That's not to say that a person is schizophrenic, or not secure in who they are, or even mercurial to the point of putting on an act, trying to blend with the company they are in. But I find that certain people bring out certain things within us, and we react and respond differently in different situations. The core of who we are stays the same.
But...each individual's experience colors their perception of you, and your perception of them. We attribute things to people based on our own experience, rather than theirs. And vice versa. I've been finding this especially obvious in my group counseling class. Comments have been made by others that they assumed things about me that aren't true. And these assumptions are made based on their own lives, not mine. Things that I would never have assumed about others, because my experience is so different from those making the initial assumptions about me. Ok, that was probably really confusing, but I can't be more specific. But theh whole process has given me a lot of observational acuity, and an interesting birdseye-view perspective of how people observe each other that really blows me away. Our perceptions are so tainted, and it makes me wonder whether we can ever really see anyone else, or if we are so blinded by our own discoloration that it's impossible.
Anyway, deep thoughts not well-enough clarified while my brain isn't working so well. Sorry bout that.
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