I don't know if anyone will read this, since I said goodbye several months ago. I didn't expect to blog again, and I don't expect to continue now. But so many things have changed that I felt the need to post an update.
I'm getting married in a week and a day.
Everything has changed so dramatically in my life since my last post that it's hard to quantify it. But yes, I'm getting married to a wonderful man who makes me incredibly happy. This relationship is so incredibly different from any others I've experienced. I can't wait to start my life with him.
The experience of finding a man who I am going to marry has made me do so much thinking, without finding a lot of answers. All I know now is that I have no idea why things happen when they do. But I do know this - my fiance said to me the day after we met, about an event that seemed awful, that I would look back and see that the bad event was the best thing that could have happened. And I now do.
I know I don't always get such quick positive hindsight, but I do see that he's right for most situations. I have no idea why I've gone through some things in my life, but I do see that they have made me who I am. And while there are a few things that I admit I regret, in general, I like to think I've learned and matured from my experiences.
It's said that on your wedding day, you get the opportunity to start anew. While I love that in some respects, I also don't want to forget all the lessons I've learned through my struggles and mistakes. And when I look at my fiance and see how we fit together so well, I realize that it wouldn't be so without all those past experiences. So I can look back and know that it was all for the best. And that's a great place to be.